The Journey Begins

Well …… truth be told it has already begun !

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

I think in truth this journey has had several beginnings but perhaps the biggest one in this journey I am taking you on was becoming single at 35 weeks pregnant (not my choice ) and moving house at 36 weeks pregnant …. also not my choice !

So here we are, myself, a very (for want of better words ) exuberant teenager, a rather lively seven year old and a nine week old baby . To say my world has been turned upside down would be the understatement of the century .

I’ve done a good bit of wallowing, a fair old bit of sobbing, a good few weeks of ignoring it all and just staring in wonder and joy when this little bundle of unexpected joy flew into our lives and now I have decided it is time to attempt to reassemble some sort of brain function and own up to the fact that after looking at all the ins and outs of my bank account we are currently left with a whopping £2.75 a week to live off for food and petrol and any other wild luxuries like …. for example , anything at all that isn’t a bill or my rent .

Laugh ?

Anyway , short of descending into wild sorrows I have decided the next best thing to do is work out how to survive, single parent three children, breastfeed exclusively, and sort out finances . This is the journey I am taking you on with me , because to be quite frank , it’s currently a rather lonely journey which is ironic in itself since I can’t remember the last time I was even able to have a wee without anyone joining me in the bathroom to sort out fighting, or pull apart some pieces of lego or answer one of a million non urgent questions , or more recently to jiggle a tiny baby on my knee !

Did I mention my line of work is as a classical musician ? That should certainly makes things easier ….. said nobody ever !

So here we go , day one of attempting to get back onto some sort of track . It has definitely started interestingly , having fallen asleep with teeny man in bed with me this morning we woke together on a huge puddle of wee , always a sign that it’s time to go up a nappy size …. thank god I bought a new pack of the size that’s too small yesterday . Perhaps I can add it to the mountain of first size nappies I stocked up on while pregnant forgetting that he’d be out of them after only two weeks … so into the shower for both of us nice and early and a bit of washing and wrestling a slippery bambino …… out of shower ….. little one dry, dressed and clean , put him down for ten seconds to attempt to find myself clothes then realise he has brought up so much milk it looks like he has had a milk hair wash ….. back into bathroom for second wash and baby shampoo and it’s only 8am. Back out , some more feeding, drying , re-dressing in clothes not covered in milk sick and I’m ready to start the day ! Here we go …. I’ll start with some internet research on how to earn anything while having a newborn baby .

Big prospects here I can feel it ..(did I mention I’m still currently in just knickers with a towel on my head ?…..)