The very breast intentions

I wonder how long it will take me to remember ?…..

While sat on the sofa early this morning, coffee in hand, tiny man on knee, I suddenly noticed his entire shoulder and top of back were soaking wet . A leaky nappy?? No, can’t be , wrong place on him unless he has secretly learnt to wee out of his ear? (At this point and after nine weeks of no sleep nothing would surprise me !) then I notice I’m soaked too ! My top , my left leg !

Feeling utterly indignant I spun my head towards the window to catch sight of whichever rascal had clearly aimed at us through the window with a giant super soaker . The window was shut. My eldest was still drinking from a mug and even in zombie mode I’m sure I’d have known if it was scalding hot coffee that had got me . I stood up, still confused which only made the situation worse as the pool that had now accumulated somewhere around my middle, now also very cold, cascaded down my leg .

Milk . Idiot I am and somehow equally shocked and affronted every single time. When will I remember that breastfeeding equals milk disasters !

Onward and upward . Well, I say upward . There hasn’t been a vast amount of upwarding yet . The fridge contents aren’t very exciting unless one loaf and a cucumber does it for you (!…….) and I’ve not moved particularly forwards yet but at least have mastered a thousand ideas for holiday activities on no funds .

Yesterday – the middlest (middlest? Middle one? Middle child ??? Is there a shorter better way to describe your middle child? Argh and isn’t middle one of those words that if you say it several times over doesn’t sound like a real word anymore !??) I digress , far too much since she’s not even part of the story …. anyway , yesterday with the inbetweener at grandmas for the night and me and the eldest keen to do something out, ventured out with teeny man to Firle . We drove up Firle Beacon …… movedz just enough away from the car that we could pretend to other hikers that we had walked up there too , baby in sling and all … and stared at the view a bit . It’s beautiful . If you haven’t been , go .

It feels like you’re on top of the world . Then we drove down into the village and went to the church . Also totally beautiful and well worth a visit . Some sun and some wandering which did us some good .

Some much needed good too, as cannot deny there has been a little bit of wallowing again . A little bit of , maybe if I was a bit more like this or a bit more like that this would be different and so on and so forth and nothing that does any good at all at the end of the day .

Today I have set up a separate email account as advised on money saving expert and started looking through the millions of earn from home ideas there . Apparently if I just complete about four thousand surveys a day I could make up to five pounds a month ……

Or they suggest if you are a lucky person (hah …. hahahahahah ….. har har and so on especially for those who have perhaps known me for several years) I could start entering lots of online competitions …..

I’m going to have a good read through all the suggestions and see if anything actually seems viable … I might try a few out and see and I shall update you later !!!

Tootle pip!